Hope all my Goddesses had a wonderful weekend. Let's get into it...Today I want to talk being okay with others misunderstanding you. Sometimes we spend so much time trying to prove what we aren't to others that we forget who we really are and begin to take on the personality others think we should be. I am totally guilty of this myself. I remember growing up I was told too often by my peers of color that "I talked white", or when I cussed it didn't sound right (Side eye to that). Like how does cussing have to have a specific sound for it to be right lol but whatever. After hearing this so much I begin to pick up on how my peers of color talked or so at least I thought because once I got my first adult boyfriend he too told me I talked to white and in ways acted white and he was going to blacken me up (Y'all I ain't lying, I ain't lying). I began to pick up on his ways and his slang and his country accent and all who truly knew me and loved me began to pull away from because they no longer recognized me. I felt isolated which only made me gravitate more towards this man who was truly no good for my soul. I was conforming to this man's lifestyle (yes me, the one who is always preaching about not conforming to societies standards had allowed a man to make me forget who I was and I am not proud of that but I am woman and human enough to admit it) and forgetting who I truly was on the inside. I was being talked about, no one understood me or why I even stayed with this man who was changing me at my very core. I did all this for 9 long years only for this man to leave me and by the time he left I was a confused mess. Deep down I knew who I was...... because what's in you from birth is in you no matter what. But I got so caught up in being judged by my own black and brown people as well as him that I buried my true authentic self. I battled back and forth with this because Chile when I tell you I got tired of hearing ,"why she talk like that?", or "why she act like that?", or "you think you white don't you?" (Furthest thing from the truth to date) I just decided hell with it. I became depressed because I truly felt misunderstood. But you know what I grew to realize and this is where wisdom and life lessons come to play it does not matter what you do, how you talk, or what you look like and or what you wear people are always going to have something to say about you. The reason that is, is simply because they are trying to deflect from their own personal issues. See in order for them to feel better about the misery in their own lives they will look for anything literally any little thing to bring you down to make themselves feel better. Just maybe they were mad because they couldn't articulate words properly or they saw a light in me that they didn't find in themselves so they wanted to dim that and for a sec I almost fell for the okie doke. But the true Goddess that lives within me, the fire that burns within my soul, the ancestors who have been protecting me along the way said aht aht none of that my child...wake up and live within your truth authentic self and to hell with anything or anyone. Moral is I was revisiting a truth that was not mine. It was their way of life and there is nothing wrong with the way they lived or talked and I accepted them for who they were but didn't get that same love in return. But with people like that you have to say to hell with them. It's okay to walk away from someone or something that is not serving a positive purpose in your life or someone who doesn't accept you for who you are. Just know for the 100 people that don't like you or accept you there are 100 plus more that do. So Goddesses take heed to the message given in the photo above and run with it. Watch how you de-clutter your soul and how peaceful your spirit will begin to be. One thing is for certain I have had many ups and downs but I wouldn't trade them for anything because every lesson has brought me to this point in my life. I am exactly on track and aligned in my destiny... Don't forget to respond, give feedback, and come back to see what's new. As always remember to#BEEE (Beautiful, Encouraged, Enlightened, & Empowered).
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